Moodboard 2
I love a sequel!
I had a whole screed ready to go about how much effort it takes to get out of bed.
But that’s not necessary right now.
The pain of being told you’ll never amount to anything makes daily affirmations sound insincere from the outside looking in.
I had planned an “I’m the SHIT; those who wronged me aren’t even the FART” post.
But, honestly, I can’t bring myself to type all that.
The vampiric people will not read this, will not offer me atonement, and I would only exhaust myself further by focusing on them, with little to gain in the end.
May our paths never cross, but if they do, I hope I have the courage to stand firm in the face of their disapproval of who I’ve become.
We’re in truly frenetic times, which makes it harder to focus on what matters. If everything is critical, then nothing is sacrosanct. I don’t know what comes next—my weed-addled brain can’t find a solution, and I suspect, dear readers, you aren’t looking to me for one. Please know I’m here, struggling right beside you.
No shiny hook for the algorithm—just the music that’s held me together.
This month’s playlist is a free-for-all, my scattered energy reflected in Scramble Them Tricks, best enjoyed on shuffle and a balm on tough days. I’ve also included three tracks from Destin Conrad’s deluxe album ‘wHIMSY!,’ the latest from Sekou, BTS, Kehlani, and Rema, plus what I believe is RuPaul’s best song in recent memory, though I’m open to debate.
At the center of this playlist is “Cherry.” Its ‘don’t push’ refrain is the opposite of the post I almost wrote. Let things ripen. Let me be where I am. I’m not rushing healing.
Your energy is indeed better spent elsewhere! 😘